Well with some spirits will make it through the Thanksgiving weekend .. So lost as to what to do and how to be myself , if i don't care about their game then nothing seems to be happening so me being alone is all there is until I go back to the road .. So for the rest of you enjoy the weekend and maybe a football game or two and will write when am back in my world on the road ..

So as the season changes I'll just wish you all a happy holiday and .. down the road I'll go I like the winter not really sure why but all the snow and cold air can bring you back to life if you don't get sick first .. Anyway it's Thanksgiving right around the corner and will be seeing family for the holiday seasons , this month and next which should be intersting... So all have a happy Turkey day when you get to it..

So I feel left out I'm out here and can't be around the people I care about, but I do care ...well it's winter here They had 14" here talking about more on the way , so time to get into the winter driving mode and be careful ...

So what do you do when you have everything in place like it should be then you find out someone doesn't care for the way it was done and more or less trashes it all ..i personally think that I should be with some one for like 3 days and then like the person who doesn't care what it took to do all this and sit back and let it all fall till I get what I want ..Which in all aspects is what they are doing is doesn't matter what you do It's just for not ....

Doin g better

Well seems that I can make a difference than just hoping things will change I to where they will go from here I can't say I'm not part of that part of my life I just know that what ever happens now It up to me to make a life for me that will be worth living or to change to something I would have .

Well seem things have a way of turning even if it's wrong , so all I can hope for is things to get better as time goes by ... I really don't have that much to say, but every now and then I speak my mind so excuse me if I sound rude but life is a drag at times and the more it pushes me the more I buck the system ..as for trusting anymore that out the window I'll just have to go down the road and hope the young ladies will keep me sane for this is a wicked road I travel it has many curves that if not ready for them will hurt and sometime the pain can only heal with time which is in short demand .. So this journey continues where only God knows for sure sometimes I wonder if even he would want to deal with this ???

The many sides of me

Seems been rather upset the last few times I've written here but if you follow this at all you will know that it is at the time that I'm writing that may be in a mood that isn't always perfered to others, and for that I 'm sorry. Still as my time has it I have things I have to keep up on, not that I'll lose sleep over it, to me that can be deadly and very dangerious which I'm talking about driving just in case your wondering where this is going or what it's all about .. I have problems that seem to want to keep up and going even though there is nothing there to complain about except to start a fight all over over something that should have been long gone in fact till recently it was long gone or so I thought, but if you look at it from my point of view it should have passed with time ..So you see it's still eating away at that dead horse years gone by which in turn makes me mad at every little thing that is done in a negative way over this fact ... and One more time to say excuse me for drifting into that land of no sense but it really does make sense to me .

Change of pace

Well seems that this is not going very well so I decide to work it differently and write about Hmm I don't know, it's just that what should have been an simple life is pretty much messed up by some that care more for there comfort and watch everyone else suffer if at all possible, as for me I suppose to sit back and watch this really suck if you know what I'm tryinng to say. I see thing in my life that don't really like about me but life was lovely and I was enjoying being married and having kids then seem some one decided to change all that for me life wasn't to be simple I was to work my life away, work night and day so some else could have what I had and so they could abuse it . To a point that cann be understandable but 30 yrs later sitll . I think it has gone beyond reason as to not even try to figure it out but end it all ..Sound good but I know it won't happem that way It will just keep on happening the way it's been and nothing will change.. this may explain why last note posted was so ...so ...

Well been rollin down the road and To me things really startin to go bad Seems I'm becoming more alone out here and other than a phone call I am not having any contact with anyone .. Not sure but to me I think that is what some people want something like me to just go away and let them do as they want with out anyone to have any say so .. If I sound pissed maybe I am ,but I don't know anyone who would let anyone treat hem this way .

Well As I roll down the roads in which case, was back road today I noticed all the fall leaes especially because they were falling and blowing all over . Which is really cool when it's like you are driving through a rain strom of leaves. Other than that was fairly nice day ,i won't go into yesterday because it was a bear and would be boring ..

so for now enjoy the fall color fest and will write more later.

Well hope everyone had a good Halloween, as for me I'm one of those that if I'm not around anybody I kind of drift off t sleep which after a long day driving sounded like the best thing to do. This is the best picture I could find and I personally think it really cool .. Ben working hard for a couple of days now so am gettin an easy day tomorrow after that is anybody guess, and believe it or not actually got everything done and caught upto date. Well will leave it at that for now don't eat to much candy and have a nice day.