Well Life throws curves right and left over and over again. I try to be better from every experience, so they say that when a person is lied to a person can keep going it's when there is no chance of making any kind of life that a person needs to be a Hmm, not sure of the word I'm looking for... you kind of get the idea, I'm kind of at that point and I don't know or really care who reads this it's more for my mental balance than for good reading.

So this is the way life is to be and enjoying the smallest of things is very much in my future, even something as simple as a cool night in the ndim light of a street light

So this is what it isn't

I know why I cry
I see you lie, why does life cheat
We only wanted to live a simple life
now I hurt you every day
You make me hate the thing Iam
does this make it alright
I was never one to fight
So a weakness is
How hard does it have to hurt
you can't change the past
ruined as if nothing was wrong
you say if you weren't caught
it doesn't matter
IT DOES

So you Think we Play well Together

just have a thing or two to say about what I write, If you think it's a clue of how to manuplite me, let me set you straight. I am very open but with a restraint, I'll say what I mean but that means I also didn't say what I want too.
So confusing I am ,but me mind is my own .So follow me if you can. I'm really nice and understanding type so let's keep this civil and I say what I mean but to me is who I talk to ...
enjoy your day for my days out here are for me to spend around a thousand people and never even say hello to one of them ...

Feeling All Alone

Is this what I have to look foward too. Waiting not knowing whats going to happen next. Though this is not me in the picture, I see me many time over with nothing but my own thoughts to keep me company even when am in room full of people. I don't say this to be pitied but more so that it's not in my head eating away at me wondering what I should do about it. I have schemes and plans but am up there in years and for me to just now begin anew is not really practical so not even knowing where to begin. Maybe I've said to much or maybe they have already won and I just waiting for the end, I hope not but as my life has been it may not be far from the truth which is another word that doesn't seem to hold up in my life. I see now that I haven't played the game right when they were robbing and stealing from me anything even my thoughts I was just helping them anyway I could and now they are skilled at the art of deception and I am just learning this is the way they are...

So this I say for I'm not finished yet and may never win at this game, but there is a simple saying that holds true even in this, "I've done so much with so little that now I can do almost anything with next to nothing ."

Sometimes..

This is strange feeling I get, I see her standing there and it's so hard not to stare. She is simple and quite a sight, not knowing what to say seems a fright. so i walk on by and stay silent, when I'm exploding inside. This is normal I do believe, but hurts like a dagger you see. i dare not speak for a fool she will see, rejected once again will it be. Dream if you care for now I wear a smile till she knows it's me then as I wanted with a lovely I shall be.

Just My Way

Drove all evening until the morning Light,

Just the road before me hardly a soul in sight,

I listen to the radio by the dim headlight,

to keep my eyes watch and waiting for signs of life,

I cross this country here and then only thinking of beauty, my time I spend

to stop and smell the roses is what I do, but rolling over hills and staring at the moon ,

I must sleep now for my day is done to start anew when the sun has set .

Back to the Grind

Well the year has begun and I'm on the run down and the road I go ...
Life is strange and for me It seems to get stranger all the time, For one minute you know whats going on and the next nothing is as it seems ... I guess for me that's a good thing since I'm out here and dealing with complete stranger, is or at least not so close to them ...
May not be making much sense but when your world doesn't follow the normal path and decisions change almost daily, it's really hard to think or plan ahead, still I put what I do down here ... If nothing intersting happens then I can look back and says it was at least fun along the way ..