I know that I probable won't find a lady to be with me, well not the way I would of thought of about five or ten years ago still maybe there is someone. I'll guess I never really have stopped looking and yes I've had that one special one, but as with all things life really never stops so I to must keep looking and hoping for those moment when all is right. I believe that even the children could be there in my life to make that joy and laughter what I can look forward to when ever I'm around. In fact the presents of kids is something that calms the rage at times.