a new day

Not much into drawing but a while back was trying to make a tarot deck just for myself which thought of making this the back cover which never got off the ground but still working on the deck just not the way I had planned, am now trying my camera which even the one on my phone will work but not for the back but each car could have one just that goes with each card. may work out or not still not sure. 

A little reflection

Been pushing my thoughts to make things go the way I think they should go, I guess I'm not the type of person to let it fall apart without at least trying to make it better I seldom make things better maybe I make it worst but the effort isn't lost with not trying to let life be the best I can make it even in the bad time and against the odd... I'm not the best but I damn ain't the worst out there, so here's hoping I can enjoy life instead of just being part of it.

What She Would Be Like

Not Sure where I'm Headed

it's a cold early morning and the warmth of the heater lets me lie around, but what I'm thinking is that if I could find someone that I could make an arrangement with as not to hurt the one I care about and still be like the pig that it sounds like I am, but I don't see where anyone as of yet. I fantasize I would never be able to control someone like that even though it would be different I don't think that I can be or would want to be that person, not that I haven't enjoyed women and not once was I demanding or mean in anyway. Only to say I do enjoy the beauty but that just because there is the youthfulness of life at the present that is all I'm finding, but enjoying someone doesn't make it just, well as a writer the mind will roam but in real life a short time can last days even weeks ...  

Games we play

Is very  strange to me writing about something I try not to do for it seems to backfire most times I try doing it so let me say I will say what I feel and try to explain why I see things that way but most of all it how I show what I'm  doing.

I may be, just not sure where I am?

I know I need to do this, I'm having a bit of a control issue where I think I'm making things better but I see I haven't done anything and if my work is any indication I'm at a stand still I always was very patient, but how do you do nothing when nothing is what is staring you in the face. I want to write but my thoughts are jumbled at the moment and Like I was saying before it so very hard to write without a muse, I know I can but I have to find my way back to that open kind of thought.As I write this I feel the flow coming back and with every word one more sign of life returns, so this may not read as something special but to me, I'll apologize for rambling but, I been misplaced for a while and now am finding my way back so just putting this out there is good for me.

One More Day

That what I think every body wants went someone they have loved and still do love is gone, you know you'll miss them but you really just want spend another day with them, I've always just enjoyed the company of certian people. Would aways bring a smile to a dim world.

Sometimes it just not what it I think it should have been

It's like I take a day off only to think that maybe it would have been a better day if I just had done nothing, would have saved some money, but even just wasting the day seems worth it. I really think I'm just hard to decide if or what I want, seems to be an issue.